Friday, January 14, 2011

Daddy-O

Yesterday I was talking with a co-worker who mentioned that his daughter (17) is in the middle of her first broken heart.

He said "I've NEVER seen her cry this much."

My response to him was this:  "Lucky for you! This is where YOU get to sweep in and become the hero."

He said "really?"

"Yes. very much, yes."

"Why's that?" he asked?

"She is going to need to be affirmed right now- that's she's loved...that she's beautiful....that there is nothing wrong with her" I told him. "My dad has always done a great job at this."

"Wow.....I didn't realize it was THAT big of a deal."
"Yes, yes it is" I said.

"Well what kind of stuff do I do?"

"YOU can be the one to bring her flowers..." ...I said "does she like starbucks?  bring her a starbucks drink home today from work.  It's really the small things.  Nothing big.  But just be there.  And slide into the place that has just been left open."

Dad,

You've always done such a great job at this.  I know plenty of girls who have 'needed' to have a boyfriend or a significant other in their life.  I've never NEEDED that.  (Not to say I've not WANTED that...and wanted it so badly it hurt) but I've never needed that.   You have done an awesome job of affirming, of loving, and taking care of the small things.  Whether it was a diet dr. pepper on a bad day, an email telling me how much you love me, or a special 2 hour drive into Dallas to take me to dinner and stock my fridge.  Not to mention the fact that EVERY single valentines day of my life that I can remember- you've taken care of being my valentine. Grateful for you.  I'm a lucky girl.

And by lucky, I mean- overwhelmingly blessed.  You make it easy for me to have a glimpse of just how much my Father loves me. Because you do a great job of looking like Him.

Love you!

:-)

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Rain

an excerpt from my personal journal on January 8, 2011:
I feel as though there has been a switch flipped in my heart this week. I feel as though in one week- the Lord has revamped my heart and I KNOW that I know.....rain is coming.
Now.  That statement might be a little confusing. Let me help you by explaining.

In Genesis.  Noah.  He's told to build an ark.  That rain would be coming. (genesis 6)

Well- here's the kicker.  He didn't know what 'rain' was.  He was just told to prepare for it. (verse 17)

Prior to this past week- if I'd been Noah's neighbor...I would have thought he was CRAZY.  Really.  A guy building a huge ark....because "rain"...whatever THAT is....was going to come.

I mean really.  They had no concept of what rain would be like..... how can you wrap your brain around something you've got nothing to associate it with?

But Noah.  He believed.  And he obeyed.  And He trusted that God would do what He said He would do.

Minda.  Minda wouldn't have believed.  She would have been a scoffer.  And said...."haaaa. right. rain. whatever THAT is."

Well.  This past week.  I participated in a New Years fast.

Here's what I felt in my heart on Saturday. 
"Minda.  'Rain' IS coming.  I know you don't know what it looks like- I know you don't know what it feels like. I know you have NOTHING to associate with it to even wrap your brain around it.  But 'rain' is coming and I want you to start speaking as though you know it's coming. I want you to start praying as though you KNOW it's coming. And I want you to believe Me when I say it's coming."

Someone posted on twitter this past week: A diet changes the way you look. A fast changes the way you see!


This. Is. So. True.

I feel as though this week- because of the fast- that I was able to SEE a situation in an entirely new light that I needed to see.

So. Rain is coming.

(if this post doesn't make sense....I'm sorry. It's still new and fresh in my heart and mind and I am not sure I'm getting it across as effectively as I would want....But.  either way.  Be looking for more on this topic in the upcoming year!) :)

Monday, January 3, 2011

Dear Mom and Dad

Mom, it's CRAZY to me- to think that right about now- 30 years ago- you were walking down the aisle in your white dress- at a church in Arizona- to meet dad at the alter and say "for better or worse."

Dad, it's CRAZY to me- to think that you were so freaking young, and committing to love and cherish mom 'til death do you part.' 

30 years. I'm grateful. 

I'll say it again. I AM GRATEFUL.

The statistics do not lie.  What you have accomplished is nothing short of a miracle.

And I just hope and pray that I will find a man that is willing to do WHATEVER it takes to reach the same milestone that you guys have reached today.

I love you so much.

Here's to 30 more years.

January 2011

Happy New Year, blogger friends.

2011 is gonna be a good year.  I'm naming it and claiming it!
This past weekend I spent a lot of time reading back through my journals for 2010.  And yes- that's plural....journalS....There were 3 of them!  Geeeez.  That's a lot, even for me!

I'm not one of those people that get a 'word' for the year....or have a vision for the year...(maybe I should be...?) But either way. That's not me.  Although last year, for the first time, that happened.  And I just remember hearing the Lord tell me that 2010 was going to be a battle. 

As soon as I heard him say that- I felt a quick assurance follow up with that word, battle.  The quick assurance He gave was this:  It's going to be a battle, but Minda, you are ready for it.

So.  Here we are, with 2010 wrapped up and I was reading through my journals.  When I read the last page- all I could do was sit and stare at the page.  I felt two very conflicting things.  I felt a heaviness.  Just the sense of "whoa.  that WAS a year of battle. "  Lots of hard things took place this year.  But at the same time- I couldn't help the grin that spread across my face of the sweet realization of "wow.  God, you are good. Even amidst all the hard things that took place- it was SO MUCH EASIER to walk through it with you.  And you are SO worth my trust."

As I was driving on Saturday morning- this song kept playing through my mind:

'Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
and to take him at his word;
just to rest upon his promise,
and to know, "Thus saith the Lord."

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust him!
How I've proved him o'er and o'er!
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust him more!
As I think about 2011, I realize that I still have a long way to go in the 'trusting Him' business.  But it REALLY is so sweet to trust Him.  To look back over the year and see how He provided, to see how He changed me, to see how much more I love Him.  But yes, I still will need grace to trust Him in 2011.

2011 is going to be a good year.