Saturday, February 25, 2012

Out of the comfort zone

You know the feeling.

There are things we do that are easy for us. There are things that require no stretching. No challenge. No thought. We are all gifted in different areas. And most often- once we've been operating in our gifting for quite some time- it comes with ease.

And then there are times we are yanked out of our comfort zone.

I love to sing. Most of you know this about me. I've been singing for as long as I can remember- and probably even before that! I've sung in front of hundreds, even tens of thousands, of people before.

Being a part of a worship team at church is something I've done since high school. I love it. When I'm leading a congregation in worship, I am at ease. Not because I can sing well, but because I'm comfortable singing in front of people.

If I were not comfortable, I would have a hard time leading others in worship. It would be too easy for me to be focused on other issues to truly allow myself to enter in to worship.

There are a whole lotta other things that go along with leading others in worship (because it is NOT just singing)- but for the sake of this post- I'll leave it at that.

Let's say you like to sing. And you can carry a tune- for the most part. You are one of those 'sing in the shower' or 'sing at the stop light' kind of people. You know. The ones who sing just because it makes them happy. Not necessarily for others to benefit.

Well. That is how I feel about my piano playing.

I know the notes. I can somewhat play a song. I really play cause it makes me happy- and not for the benefit of anyone other than me and Jesus. And honestly- if I play AND sing- it's kinda disastrous. No joke. I can play somewhat decently if I'm not singing. But add singing to the mix and it's almost always a nightmare- BUT. That has always been ok for me- because no one other than Jesus has to listen. (Aside from my roommates that have lived with me in the past, God bless 'em!)

But. Tomorrow, I'll be playing at church. And not just playing the piano, but singing as well- WHILE playing.

I won't get into detail about how THAT came to happen, but. I'll say this. I'm nervous as all get out.

About a month ago- I played the keyboard at church (no singing- just playing!) and I made the guys who were setting up- I made them place me BEHIND the curtain. I wish I was joking. That's how nervous I was. I didn't want anyone to see me. And the Saturday night BEFORE playing the keyboard...? Oh yeah. I spent 3 hours on the bathroom floor next to the toilet as I was puking my guts up out of nervousness. (pardon the crass mental picture I just gave you.) But yes. That was just PLAYING the piano.

So. Tomorrow. Not only will I be playing- but I'll be singing at the same time. WHILE trying to lead others in worship.

So, if you read this blog post between tonight and tomorrow morning- would you please say a prayer for me? It's only 6pm and I'm already feeling the nerves.

I promise you this is not some sort of false humility or anything. I know my limits. I know where my comfort zone ends and where it ends. I'm not only on the edge of my comfort zone- I'm 20 miles from it.

But I'm also willing to do what needs to be done. Which is the only reason I'm in this position.

So, prayers?

K, thanks.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Food For Thought

I just tweeted the following statement:

"In my opinion, a guy saying on his profile that he wants a skinny girl is the equivalent of a girl saying she wants a guy that makes 6 figures."

This may seem like a male-bashing post...And maybe I'm just in the mood to do just that....or maybe I've just come across a perfect way to express my feelings in regards to the whole subject.

Guys. If you make 40K, 50K, or even 80K- would you prefer that we discount you? Would you prefer that we make the assumption that you are not working hard enough? That you are lazy? That you don't have self-discipline? Would you want us to disregard you and your efforts if you didn't measure up to the 100K salary line?

In the same way, I know plenty of girls (myself included) who work out 4-6 times a week, eat healthy, make conscious efforts to he the healthiest that she can be but might not measure up to the standards the world/media has set. If she doesn't measure up to your idea of 'slender'....should she be dismissed and looked over?

Food for thought.

Weekend in Tampa/Sarasota

I got away to the beach this past weekend and couldn't have had a more relaxing time.

A beautiful 4 hour drive. Perfect weather. A gorgeous view. Dinner on Saturday with one of the sweetest couples on the face of the planet. A chance to be a 'daughter' for the weekend which was MUCH needed. Sweet breakfast and conversation with Michael and Judy for several hours on Sunday morning. And a nice drive home. Yes, I believe I will make weekend beach visits a regular thing while living here. Not necessarily that far away each time (thank you gas prices for being so outrageous), but lots of beach time is in my future for sure :-)

Monday, February 13, 2012

Meet Maggie!

Remember Maggie?  Well, I got to meet Maggie this weekend :-)  Maggie, her mom, and I went on Saturday morning to the Tallahassee Museum and Natural Habitat.

Maggie was just as delightful as I imagined she would be :-) Her little (almost) 3 year old self couldn't have been any more adorable.

AND. I found out, Maggie and I share a birthday :-)

Cheers, Maggie! I had a blast with you :-)

Friday, February 10, 2012

Dallas Meets Tallahassee

One week ago, Jen and Laura stepped onto Florida soil ready for a fun filled weekend.  We started the weekend off with lunch in Jacksonville overlooking the water on an outdoor patio at the Rivercity Brewing Company. It was a delicious meal of fish tacos, iced tea, and conversation that I've been ACHING to have since leaving Dallas.

After lunch we walked around for just a moment before seeing a NineWest outlet store. Of course we had to peruse the shoes and each ended up walking away with some saucy shoes! :-) FANCY!

Now THAT is how a great girls weekend starts off!

We drove back to Tallahassee and the girls got to see my apartment!! I loved the fact that they now know what my place looks like and when they think of me- they can know exactly my surroundings. :-)

That night we were going to try and arrange to have dinner with some people from my new church- but that didn't end up working out so instead we ate then headed back to the apartment for a night in!

Saturday morning we woke up and had a lazy morning! I made banana pancakes, cinnamon apples, coffee, and LOOOOOVED sitting on the couch with them drinking coffee. Seriously. Best ever.

We finally got out of the apartment around 1:30 and I took them on the (very SHORT) tour of Tallahassee. I showed them my office and we went to a really cute cupcake shop. OOOOOOH. And we stopped in a little shop called Kanvas- and I bought RED lipstick. Holla.  We made a stop for sonic drinks before heading to Hobby Lobby (jen had NEVER been before! {gasp})

Once getting back to the apartment- I pulled dinner together fast and we had pot roast (that I'd put in the crock pot that morning), mac and cheese, and roasted carrots.

After dinner we decided instead of going out we wanted to hang out at the apartment. So we did the normaly 'stay-in' girly type things :-)

Painted Nails..

Tried new hairstyles

and watched You've Got Mail :-)

Sunday morning we attended church- which happened to be the Grand Opening Launch service for the new church that I'm attending- and got to meet lots of new people! I'm so excited about Emerge Church and all that is about to start taking place in Tallahassee!

After church we 'napped' for a while, played card games, and then headed out to watch the Superbowl with friends. (Yay, giants!)  And yes. I wore my Dallas Cowboy jersey...AND red lipstick :-)

Monday morning came WAYYYYY too early. Because we were headed to Panama City Beach- we didn't get to do TOO much hoopla for Jennifer's birthday (who turned 25!!!!!) but we did have a Panera breakfast/coffee and drove out to the beach!

Upon arrival we stopped off at a little pier shopping center and did some morning window shopping. We then found a spot overlooking the ocean (ok, the gulf coast) and sat to, again, enjoy iced tea and fish tacos! It was quite possibly the most delightful lunch. A gorgeous view, dear friends, and great iced tea ;-)

(this was also after I lost my sunglasses)

Happy birthday beautiful Jennifer!!!

I am so grateful these girls were able to come out to Florida to visit me. Seriously, Jen and Laura- you will never know how big of a deal this past weekend was for me. I love you both so much and can't wait to see your faces again.

I don't think I was prepared for how emotional it would be upon their leaving.


After I got back to Tallahassee I went to the gym for my evening run, then headed back to the apartment and it was SOOOOOOOOOO empty.

Not a great feeling.

Ready for my next visitors :-)

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