Wednesday, August 22, 2012

The one where I have to make a decision

One year ago today, I started a new journal. I wrote the following:

I just returned from a weekend at home with mom and dad in Paris...I REALLY didn't want to start this journal until I could start it off knowing exactly where I was moving to. But, no. It didn't happen that way. So yeah- in 5 weeks- I will be moving. To the East or West. To Arizona or South Carolina.

Um. Little did I know what would REALLY happen.

It wouldn't be until 2 weeks later that my friend Grace would call me with a job opportunity I couldn't resist. Even if it did mean moving to Tallahassee, Florida where I knew no one.

And I would get an official job offer 3 1/2 weeks later. And then 3 weeks later I'd pack my bags and move.

Here I am, a year later, in Tallahassee, Florida with another big decision to be made.

I signed a year lease at the apartment complex here in Tally.

My year lease ends soon. I have to let them know today what my future plans are.

And I thought I should let you all know my plans too, seeing that you are more important to me than apartment complex people. :-)

I'll be signing a 3-month lease today with plans to move to Washington, DC in January.

In 2 weeks I'll be flying to DC to look for apartments.

Granted, when I'm there in 2 weeks, I could change my mind. I may not like the city. I've not been since 2001. I may not find an apartment I like.

If that is the case, I'll come back to Tallahassee, regroup, and figure out the next step.

But what I do know is I'll be in Tallahassee until January.

Then DC is most likely the next stop.

Who else thinks this is crazy?!?!?!

Friday, August 17, 2012

The one with the good plan

Many of you know for the past three years I've been sending out a morning text containing a 'verse of the day.' This morning was no different. I read, and the particular passage I was in today didn't really have a verse that I would constitute being one of those 'encouraging' type verses. (see James 5:1-6 and you will understand why)

As I was finishing up I sat back in  my couch and sighed. One of those deep, 'who-knew-I-had-so-much-breath-in-me' type sighs. I just said aloud "What verse should I send today?"

Now, this isn't the way it happens most mornings. Normally a verse will jump off the page while I'm reading. Or there will be a quickening inside my heart. (I know it's kooky(sp?) to some people to write about how the Lord speaks to me- but for the sake of today's post- just know- He speaks in all different ways. But bottom line....He speaks.) So today, I just asked. What verse should I send.

Immediately, a verse came to mind and I looked down and my bible was open to the particular verse. (remember, i was in James...which is NOT where today's verse came from.)

I sighed. That verse. 

I should also note: as I was about to begin this particular blog post, I was reminded of a previous post I'd written back in 2009. I went to find and re-read it- and was stumped. What is it about this verse that has made me shrug it off for so long?!

The verse: Jeremiah 29:11.

In the three years I've been sending out the morning verse of the day (VOTD) text messages, I have not once sent this verse. 

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." 

Why have I resisted using this verse? 3 years of morning verses....and NOT ONCE this verse. 

I think it was WAYYYY over-used and over-quoted in my middle school and high school days. It was the one verse everyone used. More often than not- the ONLY one most people my age knew. It was the one youth pastors preached on. It was the one senior pastors would encourage the youth with. It was the one discussed in bible study. If you were to go to a 'youth rally'....it was the one spoken about. 

And don't get me wrong. The verse is strong. The verse is Truth. And in middle school and high school- I NEEDED that verse to hold on to. I needed to know that God had a plan for my life. I needed to know HE knew the plans. 

But I'm reminded this morning, I still need to know: He knows the plans. And they are good. They are to give me HOPE. They are to give me a future. 

I was talking to my friend Amy last night and said "At this stage of my life, I am more confident than I've ever been before that His plans for me are good. More confident and able to trust His plan rather than my own."

That was an overwhelming feeling to be able to say that. Not sure at any time in my life, more than now, I've felt so confident in HIS plan.

If you need to be reminded today that His plan for you is good. Take comfort today. He knows the plans. You might not know them yet. But He does. And they are good. He will give you hope. 


Friday, August 10, 2012

The one with the lake lessons

Lessons learned at the lake:

-Everyone needs to feel the wind in their hair at some point. Get on the speedboat and face the wind.
-You can still use sunscreen AND get a tan. Use it.
-Jazz always sounds better when sitting on the deck at the lake.
-Disconnecting is a GOOD thing. Even if it's forced (aka- bad internet service)
-If you feel as though there is an ant crawling on you- chances are- there is.
-An afternoon rain shower every day is a great excuse to get inside and work on that 2000 piece puzzle.
-Family is forever. Make sure time with them counts.
-If life is stressful: grab a drink, grab a float, and float it out.


Thursday, August 9, 2012

The one with the sunset


I type this while watching the sunset over Lake Lure as I’ve done every summer for the past 8 summers.

The view is different every single time. It’s never the same. I have to resist posting tons of pictures as the landscape is the same. But the sunset. Every single night. It’s different.

My aunt and uncle purchased a lake house on Lake Lure 9 summers ago and it’s been my ‘place’ the past 8 summers. The place I can get away, be quiet, and rest.

While we had a great time being together, all the family left yesterday morning and I’m staying for a couple more days. The lake house to myself. It’s been a beautiful thing.

Grateful  to know the sun will rise each morning.

This time last year, I was in a difficult place. I had NO idea what the next year would hold. I didn’t know where I’d be living or where I would be working. My roommate was set to be married, I knew change was coming. The only thing I DID know was that God is faithful. Seriously. That was the ONLY thing I had to rely on.

While I don’t know what this next year will hold,  I am more confident than ever in the belief that His plans for me are good.